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Amanda Lyons was playing kickball when she was struck in the back by a stray bullet. Now paralyzed at age 36, she’s finding independence in a life that’s completely different from the one she had planned.

Physical Therapist Andrew Stamatelos, left, and Therapy Aide Faye Yan, right, work with Amanda Lyons, using functional electrical stimulation on her leg muscles during a physical therapy session at the Magee Riverfront Outpatient Rehabilitation Center, in Philadelphia, September 7, 2021. Oona, the therapy dog at back, keeps Lyons company.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer

Amanda Lyons had just finished a kickball game in a North Philadelphia park when gunshots flew.

She fell to the ground, hit in the back by a stray bullet, and was taking in breaths that grew increasingly painful. The 36-year-old was motionless from the waist down while her teammates, some of whom work in the medical field, tended to her until paramedics arrived.

“I can’t feel my legs,” Lyons said.

Occupational therapist Cate Furman uses paraffin therapy to treat carpal tunnel pain in Lyons’ hands during a session at the Magee Riverfront Outpatient Rehabilitation Center, in Philadelphia, August 22, 2021. Lyons may have developed carpal tunnel syndrome as a result of repetitive motions such as transferring to and from her wheelchair and advancing the wheels of a manual wheelchair.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer

It has been seven months since that shooting just after 9 p.m. on May 19, when a gunman opened fire in Hancock Playground, hitting a 16-year-old boy in the shoulder and striking Lyons in the back. No one has been arrested.

The split second left Lyons paralyzed with a severed spinal cord and relegated her to a wheelchair indefinitely, forcing her to adapt to a life that looks completely different from the one she had planned. An occupational therapist by trade, Lyons is now the type of patient she used to treat: a gunshot victim who must learn new techniques to perform basic tasks.

Her experience in medicine also means she is acutely aware that she was inches from an outcome worse than paralysis. Just after Lyons awoke in the hospital, she video-chatted with her mother. The first thing she said was: “Mommy, I could have died.”

Therapy aide Faye Yan, left, and physical therapist Andrew Stamatelos, right, work with Lyons on core strength and balance during a physical therapy session at the Magee Riverfront Outpatient Rehabilitation Center, in Philadelphia, September 7, 2021.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer
Physical therapist Andrew Stamatelos, left, and therapy aide Faye Yan, right, work with Lyons using functional electrical stimulation on her leg muscles while she stands up during a physical therapy session at the Magee Riverfront Outpatient Rehabilitation Center, in Philadelphia, September 7, 2021. Lyons needs to be supported by aides in order to stand.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer
Physical therapist Andrew Stamatelos, center, works with Lyons, feet on either side, to stabilize her on a stability ball during a physical therapy session at the Magee Riverfront Outpatient Rehabilitation Center, in Philadelphia, September 7, 2021. Stamatelos frequently works with gunshot victims. “If people would stop shooting each other,” he said, “I would be forty percent less busy.”JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer

“I’m still mourning the loss of my old self,” she said. “I’m still in some denial about having to be in a chair, and I still wake up and am like, is this nightmare over? Was this all a nightmare?”

That “old self” was athletic, bubbly, and fearless. Lyons is a Jersey native with a bit of a no-nonsense temperament, and was that person at every party who always had a smile stretched ear to ear. Relentless optimism is a part of herself she’s tried to harness now, even through unimaginable pain.

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Still, the sheer randomness of the gunfire knocked Lyons’ life off its axis and traumatized her, her friends, and her family. It came amid a spike in shootings in the city, a surge that exploded in the spring of 2020 and has left thousands of people in Philadelphia with life-altering injuries.

Lyons paints a mermaid on a wheelchair transfer board during an art therapy session at the Magee Riverfront Outpatient Rehabilitation Center, in Philadelphia, September 7, 2021. The board helps her move from her wheelchair onto a bed, another chair, or into a car. “That’s my interpretation of me,” she said of her painting.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer
Lyons negotiates a wheelchair transfer into a waiting vehicle as her sister-in-law looks on, after a physical therapy session at the Magee Riverfront Outpatient Rehabilitation Center.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer
Lyons takes a moment to regroup as she was not feeling well physically, and was emotional after completing a physical therapy session at the Magee Riverfront Outpatient Rehabilitation Center, in Philadelphia, September 7, 2021.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer

And she’s one of many in Philadelphia hit this year by an errant bullet, a group that also includes a 13-year-old girl shot while riding in a car, a Drexel student struck while watching fireworks in July, and a 66-year-old man killed while driving by his alma mater.

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Philadelphia’s shootings crisis reached unprecedented heights this year, and the city recorded more homicides than ever before. But of the nearly 11,000 people struck by bullets since 2015, three-quarters survived, many of them left to navigate immense physical and emotional challenges. This is Part 4 in a series of stories about gunshot survivors.

That context has not been lost on Lyons, who has made gun violence prevention her raison d’être, calling for stronger gun safety laws from her hospital bed and appearing this month at a violence prevention event alongside Gov. Tom Wolf. She frequently uses her social media platform to fund-raise for Everytown for Gun Safety, one of the country’s most prominent gun control groups.

Lyons relaxes outdoors with friends in Philadelphia. The scar on her stomach stems from surgery doctors performed in the aftermath of the shooting in order to assess the internal damage. She doesn’t mind people seeing the scar. “It’s a mix of pride and just not wanting to pay attention to it,” she said.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer
Kate Wormser, a friend of Lyons’, stands by as Amanda transfers from her wheelchair to a lounge chair. Lyons has scars on her back as a result of the shooting. Five days after she was shot, she underwent spinal fusion surgery to stabilize her spine.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer
Lyons adjusts her legs while trying to get comfortable in a lounge chair, at front. Wormser, back left, and another friend, Katie Kercher, back right, are members of Lyons’ kickball team and were there when the shooting happened. “We knew that night that she wasn't going to die late, like 4 a.m.,” Kercher said, “but didn't really know what the future looks like.”JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer

She tries to share the raw truth with her followers, taking them along through months of rehabilitation that included everything from physical therapists using electrical currents to stimulate the nerves in her legs, to art therapy sessions where she painted a mermaid onto a piece of wheelchair equipment. She’s posted photos of the massive scar on her stomach from the surgery to evaluate what was damaged inside her body after the shooting, one of dozens of procedures.

This fall, she finally had a large fragment of the bullet removed from her back.

But it is not possible to show the breadth of the impact — not the therapy to deal with the depression and anxiety, or the medication she must take four times a day to help the nerve pain.

Lyons and her mother, Susan Prima, pass through Washington Square Park while running errands in Philadelphia, October 8, 2021.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer
Lyons grabs her transfer board on the way out the door to run errands with her mother, Susan Prima. “You’re used to fixing things as a mom,” Prima said. “This is something we can’t fix.”JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer
Lyons with her mother, Susan Prima, in her apartment. The pair had plans to go to a medical appointment, get a flu shot, and do some shopping.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer

She can’t capture the conversations with her husband, Ben, about how to avoid dwelling on the worst “what ifs,” or how he can deal with the guilt he feels for not being there — for leaving the park to run home for just a few minutes, then sprinting back to find his wife shot.

And hard as Lyons may try, it’s difficult to chronicle the span of daily activities forever changed by becoming a paraplegic. There is no more going to the Firefly music festival without having to lie down in pain in an RV, or hearing fireworks over Labor Day weekend without experiencing a panic attack.

There are no more morning runs, no standing at the bar with friends, no easy trip in an Uber to go out to eat. She feels intense self-consciousness when she thinks about riding the bus, worried about getting the wheelchair on and concerned other riders will pity her.

“I try not to draw attention to my chair. I don’t want people looking at it,” she said. “I want to feel like you. I want to feel like everybody else. And it just is a reminder that I’m not walking.

Lyons lowered the racks in her closet for easier access to her clothes.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer
Lyons cooks breakfast at home, on a stove with easily reached knobs. She and her husband relocated to an apartment that is wheelchair accessible. While they miss their old neighborhood and neighbors, their new home has wider door frames, room for wheelchairs to make turns, and an accessible shower, among other accommodations.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer

Some of her anxiety, she said, could be stemmed if police solved the crime. Philadelphia Police Chief Inspector Frank Vanore said investigators identified a suspect and are “working with some other evidence” but have not definitively connected the person to the errant gunfire.

Detectives speak regularly with Lyons’ mother, Susan Prima, who travels to Philadelphia from New Jersey a few times a month to take her youngest daughter to doctor’s appointments. Sometimes she arrives at the new apartment Lyons moved into — because it’s wheelchair accessible — and when she sees her daughter come out of the bedroom in a wheelchair, all she can think is “no.”

“My heart is broken,” Prima said. “I’m better than I was May 19th. But my heart will always be broken. It will never be the same.”

Lyons knows her family is changed, and that her friends, some of whom watched her get shot, have experienced layers of trauma different from her own. She tries to put on a brave front and smile as much as she can, flashing what her mother calls “the deepest dimples you will ever see.”

Lyons is assisted by her husband, Ben, in transferring from her wheelchair to a sofa in Philadelphia, October 13, 2021. “He’s the only person that understands, without being paralyzed, what it’s like,” she said of her husband.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer
Lyons sits with her husband, Ben, during an interview in October. The pair met when they were both students at the University of Delaware.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer
Lyons is accompanied by her husband, Ben, in October. When asked if he has gotten used to taking on the role of caregiver, he said: “I’m not sure it’s something you ever want to get used to.”JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer

In the quieter moments, the facade crumbles. For the first few months, Lyons broke down in tears every time a friend or family member left the apartment. She said her husband is the only one who has really seen through the strong exterior to the agony and depression.

Together, they have committed to taking on the future in small increments — it’s easier to think about the day-to-day, or week-to-week, than face the overwhelming notion of what life will be like by the time she’s 40, or 60, or 80.

So they find wins where they can. Sometimes that means going out to a brewery or making it through an entire Eagles game without having to leave feeling anguished. Sometimes it just means getting out of bed.

This fall, Lyons returned to work, teaching a slate of occupational therapy classes at Thomas Jefferson University.

Tina DeAngelis, director of the Occupational Therapy Doctorate Program at Jefferson's College of Rehabilitation Sciences, right, greets Lyons, an occupational therapist, assistant professor and academic fieldwork coordinator, in their office building at Thomas Jefferson University Center City Campus, in Philadelphia, November 9, 2021. Lyons returned to work this fall and is teaching a slate of occupational therapy classes at Thomas Jefferson University, both virtually and in-person.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer
Lyons talks with a student after a clinical seminar for occupational therapy graduate students, at Thomas Jefferson University Center City Campus. She tries to be open with her students about her injury. “I want them to see this,” she said.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer
Lyons returns to her office after class where graduate students had decorated the entire department with paper butterflies. The art installation was also a fundraiser for Lyons. Returning to work is one of the ways Lyons is slowly but surely regaining her independence.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer

And in early October, she sat on a blanket in Fairmount Park all day and watched her old kickball team, the Bayside Ballers, play together again for the first time since the shooting. Lyons’ family came, and some sipped on a beer called “Angry Amanda,” named after Lyons and brewed at a bar near Hancock Playground.

Several of her friends spouted off statistics about gun violence from Everytown’s website that they’ve committed to memory, like that the group’s research shows 58% of American adults, or someone they care for, have experienced gun violence.

Teammates from the Bayside Ballers J.R. Nettuno, left, and Jon Fruman, right, lift Lyons, center, from her wheelchair onto a blanket so that she can relax and watch the game, prior to the start of the Heyday Athletic “Kicking out Gun Violence Charity Kickball Tournament,” in Philadelphia, October 2, 2021.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer
Lyons leads a team huddle prior to the start of the tournament. The Bayside Ballers wore orange, recognized as the color of gun violence prevention.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer
Lyons lays on the grass next to her husband, Ben, at the kickball tournament in Fairmount Park. Lyons’ step-mother arrived and said, “Amanda, you look beautiful,” to which Lyons responded: “I feel beautiful.”JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer

An acquaintance asked Lyons about her prognosis without saying what so many have wondered: Will she walk again? She tells them that she has some sensation in her legs, a sign of progress, and that she knows several months into a spinal cord injury is nothing in the grand scheme of how long they can take to heal.

“You never know what could happen,” she said.

As the sun started to set, Lyons had to lie down on the grass and close her eyes, overwhelmed by the people, noise, and pain.

But it was the longest amount of time she’d been away from a couch in months. And so, like the Bayside Ballers who prevailed in the tournament, Lyons took the win.

Amanda receives a hug goodbye from friend Katie Kercher as she leaves the kickball tournament to go home and rest, while her husband, Ben, packs her things into the bag on the back of her wheelchair.JESSICA GRIFFIN / Staff Photographer

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